*[[if u can dream it, u can do it]]*

i feel very vexed, irritated, bothered, annoyed, upset, irked, bugged, stressed and FAN and a thousand million zillion horrible feelings right now.
if only i know what to do
if only i was smarter
if only i was more intelligent
if only u were richer
if only u could afford more
if only u are more powerful
if only u did not ask for so much
if only u are not so selfish
if only u could say something
if only u did not do this to me
if only i could find a way out
if only i could make do with it
if only i could give it up
if only choosing the other would not hurt me so much
if only it wasnt so important
if only things werent so hard
if only it wasnt so complicated
if only i could stop feeling stressed
if only u could keep quiet
if only u could close one eye
if only u didnt cheat
if only u had ur conscience
if only i did not need to shed tears of despair
if only i could do the impossible
if only u know whats beautiful
if only in the world of lies u are the truth
if u could make me safe no matter where u are
if only nothing is above me
if only i am like a candle shining in the dark
if only u could walk into my life
if only i could become a hero
if only u could bring me everything that i ask for
if only i would not hunger
if only i was stronger
if only someone can tell me what to do
if only there isnt so many ifs

Ange
4:46 pm