*[[if u can dream it, u can do it]]*

one day i shall resolve to shutting my eyes are throwing everything in my room away. messy room, many things, they all crowd in ur mind making them cloudy and all troublesome. seeing many things ard u, even in ur own room makes u feel stressed. all that junk needs to go soon anyway.
so many things to do, so little time. i hate the thought of the holidys ending. that sucks.

anyway was talking to snowb jus now on the phone. i think what she said is really true. reality. but sometimes the truth can be so harsh and hurtful. no use trying to console urself when u know that the fact in right in front of ur face. jus have to accept it. like when u need help, u have to admit u need help and no stay there thinking u know everything, pretending everything will be perfect. jus when u think u got everything, friends, money, love, watever and thinking that u are the happiest person alive, u never know when something will go awfully wrong which will change ur perception of life forever.

my life now:
friends: i have friends. and i dun mind jus having one friend
love: i think its complicated and i think guys are useless in my life right now and i am not looking forward to falling in love. makes u even more depressed sometimes. all the u-dun-care-about-me shit, the thought of it is scary. i will not wanna cry for nothing.
money: pocket money right now is ok. i dun mind more.

jus change these 3 things to:
friends: i have got many friends
love: i have got this so loving bf
money: i am this rich girl who as everything that i wan

therefore, changes to my life will be:
wow so many friends. are u gonna be jealous that i have a huge social cirle? then, romantic times with this handsome guy, having nice candle light dinner by the sea, wonderful dates. seems like the happiest person on earth. and finally, price tag never exists.

however, we all miss out the hard facts:
i will be living in fear because i do not know whos gossiping behind me. u cant hide the fact that girls gossip a lot. i am not denying i am not one of them either. and u will never know whos gonna backstab u at work, eyeing that position of ours and planning that u get sacked. bf: even worse still. BREAKUP. this word can make a girl's life go crashing down. the poor trees will face extinction because of the huge amt of tissue paper waste. emotional heartbreak will lead to depression, stess, poor performance at work etc. money cant buy a new bf or happiness or career

so which is better. with or without changes????

Ange
12:19 am